Civilization

Civilization makes me crazy. I’m trying to quit refined sugar and it’s giving me mood swings. I don’t want to go to work. I’m trying to get rid of all my stuff – furniture, unneeded books, cd players, my computer, my rug, lamps, curtains – everything. I’m going through old school files and only keeping what’s really important to me, trashing all my old ‘official’ files – bank statements, pay stubs, loan bills, all that bullshit. I’ve put out a TON of paper to recycle this past week!

I just hope it’s worth it when I get to Missouri. I hope it really does work out the way I’m seeing in my head, that I can do the work necessary to Not need money any more. Hopefully once we lease this land I’ll really only need money for seeds anymore. Grow food, build a house from the land. Car insurance will be my biggest expense at $88/month, and even that will be considered a luxury. Gosh, what else?

Not much, for now. Just rallying all the funds I can to make the trip out West and start for real. Living in the real world, where eventually I might be able to listen to the trees and the water and the soil, and start a conversation.